Today is Yom Kippur the Day of Atonement... the holiest day in the Jewish religion... I have always loved the evening service that begins Yom Kippur... I think the Kol Nidre service is one of the most beautiful services that I remember in the Jewish religion...Of course, I usually only attend services twice a year... so there in fact may be many other beautiful services... In my many years as an adult, I have always found a way to attend that service... When I was newly married... I used to find a service to attend on my own. When I had young children, I would leave the kids at home and attend the local service... when my marriage ended, the children would attend with me... I took comfort in the ritual... even tho I never fasted, I would pray, atone, and just generally contemplate... and while I always loved the hauntingly beautiful Kol Nidre chant...I began to dislike (maybe that's alittle strong) the actual Yom Kippur service, or should I say the Torah reading that is always on that holiday. Each year I would read the story of Abraham taking his only son Isaac up the mountain to offer him as a sacrifice to G-d...This test of faith began to bother me... Why would G-d ask for that kind of test?... How could G-d ask for that kind of test?...
Last year was my first year in Boulder... and I did not attend any service... I took a beautiful hike on Yom Kippur... atoned and prayed on my own... took my pieces of bread over to the creek to toss away... thought about my journey... wondered where life will take me...
This year... no hike.... no service... plenty of contemplation.... a whole summer filled ... and then today... on Yom Kippur... I began to realize... there is no asking G-d why.... there is no asking G-d how could....
There only is G-d... Belief... and Faith...
Happy New Year... Good Yon Tiv...
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