Patchwork patterns... make a quilt...

Old patterns.... hmmm...we create them and they provide us with a guide on how we operate... but when they no longer serve us well... how do we let them go?...how do we step into creating new patterns?... and then how do you put old relationships on new ground?.... how do you change dynamics? I certainly can't figure out how to change them... I can analyze them (ad nauseum!)... I can now sort of recognize when they do not serve me... but I can't figure out how to change them.... hmmmm...
I feel like I have an old quilt that is made up of patterns of behavior that served me for a long time... it has kept me somewhat warm, safe, and secure, but now has some very large holes in it; maybe I will just keep adding to it...maybe by creating new patterns of behavior... I will replace some of the worn out and old sections....who knows what that quilt will look like in the end...
So... maybe it's not about changing the relationships... maybe in changing those old patterns...the relationships have already changed... maybe it's a lot more like expectations and acceptance...it's that in letting go of the old patterns... it's about learning how to accept the changes that I have created...

ahhhhh... back to accepting....trying on the new patterns and seeing if or how they fit....
well... I am creating my new quilt...and that part feels good....