Sunday Musings

I am home feeling trapped on a beautiful day... because I committed to telling a DDS that he could pick up his briefcase at my house... of course he did say morning... and when I called this AFTERNOON to ask what time he would arrive... his phone went straight to voice mail... so I have been somewhat productive... I made my first batch of Xmas pecans... only 4 more bags to go!... I could bring in my Xmas tree and get that set up... hmmm... maybe... or maybe I will forgo a tree this year... I haven't decided.... Do I need the tree to get in the Xmas spirit... I don't think so... so this may become my first year in hmmmm.... 30 (wow) years.... that I don't put up a tree...

My dad sent me an interesting article today on what most people are afraid of... I found it interesting that what this author suggested is that it's not "being alone", "helplessness", or anything else you can name... it is actually the fear of our FEELINGS...I was captured and intrigued by her argument... I really believe that is the case... I always thought my trouble was I just didn't acknowledge my feelings... they were hard to "get in touch" with...or I would say ..."I don't have words to express them"... and so... I have learned, thru many years of therapy... how to put "feelings" into words... but I found this woman's premise so intriguing... and I think she has actually hit the nail right on the head... It is that we (I should say I) are just too fearful to feel them... It's as if we were to think that there maybe something wrong or shameful in actually feeling hurt, alone, betrayed, ... they are negative ... but we all have, at one time or another, had those feelings... we try to act as if we were to have anything other than "happy" feelings, then we must have some deep problem... she suggests that the solution is to "emotional multi-task"... I love this idea.. we give ourselves permission, without guilt, or beating ourselves up, to explore what messages we are getting from those bad feelings... and once we figure out "the message", we just let those feelings be... and in a sense...not just "move-on"...but kind of "live" with those feelings...
She calls "emotions"... "e-motion" ... as in "energy in motion". What a cool idea! The idea that our emotions are supposed to actually, literally and figuratively, "move" us... The answer is not to not feel, or supress, or stuff... but rather explore, and move... acknowledge that feeling... ask the question about it... and go where the answer takes you...
What an interesting article for Sunday reading...