As time goes by....

Well... I've been in Boulder for 6 weeks, left G'burg 2 weeks before that, and sold my home 2 weeks before that....so it's been a while since:
a) I've seen my stuff
b) since I've had a home
but time has a way of easing some pains, playing with one's memory, and also tugging on your heart.
I'm continuing to explore Boulder and am enjoying the "great outdoors" and weather here.
4 weeks and 6 days... I took my first hike up the mountain in Chatacqua...Rusty had said climb Royal Arch and take a picture... so I did.... Amazing!!!... from the top you can see all the way to Denver (about 25 miles away)... on a really clear day... (the first hike) you can see the airport , which is even farther. The arch itself is pretty amazing and it makes you wonder how 2 massive sand stone structures can be linked together like that... met at the exact angle to create that arch millions of years ago....it's just beautiful... the climb itself, as I have learned, is of moderate difficulty, due to the rise in altitude in the mile it takes to reach the arch... just over 1200 feet. so it can be steep in some places... My first hike up, took 2 1/2 to 3 hours... and just about an hour on the way down... I was incredibly sore for the next 3 days! lol... but I made it to the top! I did send a couple of pictures to Rusty and he didn't know who they were from! He called my cell... asked "who is this?" "I thought someone was sending me pictures from an airplane..." I did the hike again this past week and am not as sore..actually.. I'm not sore... and I improved my time by an hour on the way up and 20 mins on the way down! The weather this past week was weird.. we had a huge wind storm ... 100 mile an hour winds... all night long... power went out here and also at work.... just strange... but I also had a hard week emotionally... I'm lonely...
Sometimes I feel like I'm in "no mans land" I can't go home again... and I haven't quite made it here... I'm not much of a "joiner"... but I will have to do something to meet people... I just don't know what yet.... for now ... I'm just going to continue to do the things I like... I'll go hiking... I bought a trail book and map... this city is just filled with trails! I will join a gym... I'm moving to my new temp place on Friday... I think I'm going to buy a bike and I can bike to work and around... I am soooooooo looking forward to Alison coming out for a visit! That is keeping me going. I just can't wait to share the town with her and spend time with her. To see someone that I love and someone that loves me... that is something I truly miss...
My head knows that this is an adventure for me, a time to grow, discover... I can see and acknowledge that this is a blessing for me... I will and am growing as a person... but my heart... ahhh.... that's a different scenario... It's breaking... or maybe not breaking... it's broken... and I haven't been able to fix it, or patch it, or just rebuild yet... Maybe that's the thing... that's the lesson to learn.. how to do it "myself" ... I'm looking for a friend... a kind word... a playmate... someone to hang with... maybe the lesson is "do it on your own" or "learn to nurture and care for me and my own heart as I would for someone else"... hmmmm.... either way...
this is what I do know.... the mountains make me smile... the vastness of the sky makes me smile... the intensity of the weather... makes me smile... the smallness of the town... makes me smile... a good hike ... makes me smile...
so I think those things are a good start....